After losing my mother at 15 years old, I knew the only thing that could possibly partially fill that void was becoming a wife and mother myself.  And I got just that, I absolutely had everything I ever wanted! An amazing dedicated husband and a sweet little baby boy that stared into my eyes with a love that just makes your heart melt.  

Yet, somehow it still wasnt enough.  I suffered  from PTSD thanks to a traumatic birth experience and Post Partum Depression after having my son.  But I just didnt understand, how could the one thing that was suppose to heal my wounds create bigger ones.  I completely fell apart and lost myself.  I had no idea who I was or what I even looked like honestly.  I tried to overcompensate the feelings of guilt, shame and inadequacies of being a wife and mother by doing even more.  Going above and beyond, loving so hard, sacrificing so much and making it my mission to make everyone happy, well except myself.  

It wasnt until I unexpectedly got pregnant again 9 months later that I realized just how lost and unhappy I was.  I just spent the past 9 months burning myself out how in the world can I bring another child into this.  I sat on the side of my bed crying and for some reason felt compelled to reach over to my desk and pull out a deck of cards that my aunt had given me.  I pulled one out in the middle and it read “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and give you hope and a future”  -Jeremiah 29:11.  

It was then that I knew I had to change if I was going to survive this time around. I dropped to my knees, cried out to God and asked for his help, mercy and guidance and forgiveness.  I told him I will meet him halfway, and as my dad says, I will put forth the effort the right effort this time and he will be responsible for the outcome.  But I will no longer sit and be a bystander to the story he has written for me.  I want to reap all the benefits of the plans he has for me.  

I began growing in my faith and trust in Him, rebuilding my identity, realizing my value and uncovering my passions and walking in my purpose.  Within those 9 months of meeting him halfway, I learned and gained so much wisdom and knowledge.  Which led me to not only build multiple businesses, but way more importantly for me to deliver my 9lb 6oz son with a pain-free, tear-free, complication-free VBAC.  

Now I am a thriving Mom of 3 little boys and a bonus mom to a teen boy, who is on a mission to help empower, equip and support other mothers as they navigate motherhood and themselves in it.  Through faith based practical tools, resources and transformational frameworks-together we will create a life they are happy to say they love, instead of a life they are sad to say they are surviving. 

Mama, You are powerful, valuable, worthy, beautiful and gifted.  You are not defined by how much you can get done in the house, or what you do for others, or what they say about you.  You are who God says you are, and know that he has a plan specially designed for you thats more than you can imagine.  You just have to RISE!